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This needed to be let out desperately. its long, you dont have to read it.
its my fault. I REALIZE THAT. thats alot coming from a girl, because most dont admit that. I fucked up because I got fucked up, and it was smart of you to end things before things went terrible. I never wanted to hurt you and I never wanted you to hate me, but i guess thats where we are now. Just ignoring each other like nothing ever happened between us. The thing is though, whenever somebody mentions you, everything just comes back to me. How we used to watch movies in your room all the time because we had nothing better to do. Doing stupid things like dragging each other around the house, fighting each other all the time, chasing each other like little kids. Of course though, I remember all the bad things we did to each other that I try to forget. Over all though, you were pretty much my first real boyfriend/ friend. I think thats why it’s hard for me to forget sometimes because it was just great. I want to run up to you and tell you how much I care about you and how you made me feel loved in a new way. If I could tell you one thing I would tell you how thankful I was for you. Yes, thoughs text messages were not okay for you to say at all and mine were not okay to send either, we both just said everything mean we could say possible to each other, but im still happy to have met you. I hope one day we can talk and clear the air and not ignore each other. I miss you.
